Lay all your love on me..

Don't go wasting your emotion
Lay all your love on me

It was like shooting a sitting duck
A little small talk, a smile and baby I was stuck
I still don't know what you've done with me
A grown-up woman should never fall so easily
I feel a kind of fear
When I don't have you near
Unsatisfied
I skip my pride
I beg you dear

Can't wait for June! *winks*.

This is the song from Mamma Mia. I really like it.
It's sooo sweet. I think Amanda Seyfrield did a good job. She has such a sweet voice.

Hey there.

Hello people, I'm sorry for the emo posts lately.
Sorry if it got you emo too :)

I have a few assignments I have to complete.
1. An essay about Aristotle's quote 'all should rule over each ' and how it affected the Athenians in the 5th Century.
2.I haven't chosen my topic yet. Can't really decide cause all of them seems so 'fun'..
3. Some commerce crap.

Seriously, I can't stand commerce. Lol.
I don't really enjoy studying the concepts. I don't wana learn how banks create money, I just wana know how I can get more money cause I really need em right now.

I better go before I start my random rambling..

Toodles,
AMY!!

Amy is

going through a really hard time..

Stole this from Yuen Yu cause I'm bored.

Just back from work...and time to relax~>online...so here goes...
Starting time: 1.20 am
Name: amy/applie/hueyshern - you pick
Sisters: No. sister yes.
Brothers: No. brother yes.
Shoes size: 6 or 7. yay. bigger than Yuen Yu's.
Height: Between 156-160cm
Where do you live: A room in a hostel
Favourite drink: COFFEEEEEEE
Favourite breakfast: anything unhealthy. but lately, i'm enjoying toast bread and marmite :p
HAVE YOU
Been on a plane: Yes
Swam in the ocean: Yes
Fallen asleep in school: Duh. Who hasn't? lol
Broken someone's heart: I'm so sweetly innocent *coughs * haha, kidding.
Fell of your chair: Yup.. *eeks
Sat by all night waiting for someone to call: Hell yeah
Saved e-mails: Of cause :D
What is your room like: I MISS MY ROOM IN MALAYSIA!!
What's right beside you: Mess
What's the last thing you ate: Horrible Te Puni food. It was bad today
Ever had chicken pox: Yup .
Sore throat: -.- , tell me if you dont. PLS
Stiches: Yeaps.
Broken nose: NOOOOOOOO.
Do you believe in love at first sight: Infatuation yes, love.. No. love is deeper than the skin.
Like picnics: Yeah, depends who with.
Last made you smile: My brother.
You last yelled at: Erm. Mandy :D

TODAY DID YOU
Talk to someone you like: Yes
Kissed anyone: Does kissing a picture count? :(
Get sick: Feel like it.
Talked to an ex: No
Miss someone: Like crazy.
Do you sleep with stuffed animals: I miss mine at home. sobsob
What's under your bed: who knows..
Who do you really hate: Peter Griffin from tv series family guy. annoying but funny haha
What time is it now: 1.30 am
Is there a person who is on your mind right now: yeah
Do you have any siblings: Yes
Do you want children: 5!! HAHA
Do you smile often: I hope, do I? :D :D :D :)
Do you like your handwriting: I don't know..
Are your toenails painted: Nope..
Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in: Erm, i dont know. no where is comfy nw.
Color shirt are you wearing: Blue n white, stripes
What were you doing at 7pm yesterday: Chatting at Mandy's.
I can't wait to: See him.
When did you cry last: Recently
Are you a friendly person: :D <-that explains alot .. haha Do you have any pets: Yes. I miss them... Where is the person you have feelings for right now: Across the ocean. Up north, then west. Did the last person you held hands with mean anything to you: So much. Do you sleep with the TV on: No What are you doing now: Doing this tag, and listening to Mariah carey. Can you handle the truth:Depends what the truth is about. Are you closer to mother or father: Same How many people can you say you've really loved: so many lah. Family, cousins, himmmmm Do you eat healthily: Does instant noodles at 1 am still considered okay? Have you ever cried because something someone said to you: Of cause How often do you go to church: Every sunday If you're having a bad day,who are you most likely to go to: him, bro, mandy, yuenyu. Are you loud or quiet most of the time: Dunnoe Are you confident: my size and appearance~No..; my abilities~No.. THINGS YOU DID 10 YEARS AGO
Climbing up a rambutan tree :D Horse riding on my dog..
Swimming! Swing upside down from the swing with FernYi(bad influence. haha).
Play'ghost' with sharon.


THINGS ON MY TO DO LIST TODAY
-nearly overslept for classes.
-did a test.
-hate the wind
-finished my tutorial homework
-chat with mandy
-talked to my brother
-randomly look at stuff on trade me
-accomplished some of the stuff on my previous post to-do-list

5 PLACES I HAVE LIVED IN
-Taiping
-Penang
-Wellington


PEOPLE I TAG
-whoever is bored like me..haha

What I want for today, and the week..??

When a new day begins, so do I.
A new page of my life, with life itself waiting to scribble on the paper.

When I wake up tomorrow, I am a new person. I am no longer who I am yesterday but rather who I want to be today.

With new resolutions, new unwritten goals and an improved personality.
Sorry for the crap, anyway..

Today, I want to be more independent.
Not physically independent but emotionally independent.
I don't want to rely on anyone to get past my day.
I want to be strong for the people I love.
I don't want to let anyone down.
I want to put a smile on my face, which reaches from the depths of my heart to my lips so that I can make someone happy.
I want to make sure I read up more about Alexander The Great (and learn his charisma).
I have to finish my commerce tutorial homework and it must be done well.
I need to sleep early tomorrow.
I want to go to the movies to watch Confession of a Shopaholic with Mandy and whoever wants to come.
I want to drag my brother to it cause his facial expression would be priceless and amazingly amusing.
I want to help Mandy put her used cup on the rack, coughs*-thank Goodness she doesn't read my blog. I think.. lol.
I want to scream if dinner was as bad as yesterdays.
I crave to drink 4 cups of coffee tomorrow =).
I want to punch someone.
I want to poke Mandy.
Poor Mandy.
I need to find my pendrive.. sighs..
I want to learn French, blame Charlotte!!
I want to be a princess :D -that was random**
I need to be kiwi, to prove myself to Mandy and Cam. I have to use fork and knive.
I MUST stop Steph, Cobin and Cam from picking up the Malaysian accent.. I came here for an overseas Kiwi experience,and this dudes use 'Walauwei' and lalalas and 'makan' like nobody's business.
I want to manage my time better. I'm too much of a bummer till I can't stand it.
I want to wear skirt tomorrow, haven't done that since I got here, better make use of it before it gets colder :p

I want to be myself!

xoxo,
the only applie.

Without you.

Everyday is a Rainy Day. I miss you.

This picture is SO SO relevant to me right now.
Without you it's rainy everyday, literally and physically.
So please come here, and bring the sunshine with you. The one you have inside you.
The kind of sunshine only you can bring. The one that is powerful enough to BLOW away all the clouds and dry up all the raindrops that make me so cold.
Then you'll bring romantic wind instead of the current wind that makes me feel so chilly and my hair messy(cause if you were here, you'd say 'aiyer, amy ah, your hair').




I'm the BLUE color wan..

Oh NO!! It's getting colder

Dang, so there's the whole 'lonely' part which I had to tackle and now there's the part where it's getting colder.

I have to say when I first got here, I didn't exactly like the weather but I thought I could cope.
Little did I know that the weather can change so significantly in just 3 weeks.
At one point, a shirt, jeans and a reasonably thick sweater was sufficient. Not any more.
I wore 3 layers today and still felt like I'm gona freeze to death.
Credit to some of my friends who go around wearing a t-shirt and they're actually comfortable. =.=.

It'a about 10 degrees through the night till morning and increase by a few degrees during the day.
Wish me luck people. You know how afraid I am of the cold =).

When loneliness eats you.

Here comes the bitter part.
When life itself starts eating you from the inside out.

I don't know which is worse. Me being sick or me feeling lonely late at night when there's no one to share my time with plus the part when I can't sleep despite how tired I am.

I have to say the part when I feel really lonely is partly my fault because for some strange reason,
I have become this creep who loves spending time in her room just doing things that I can't even define what I'm doing. While my friends are having fun outside socializing and getting closer to their acquaintances, I would be in my room, doing the undefined.
I remember when I used to be roommates with Yuen Yu. Life was different. She made me become this freak who would talk non-stop. Okay, she didn't change me but she's a good listener so yeah, I could babble about almost anything and she would just nod and of cause slot in some of her own opinions, which are usually more logical than mine.

Life was awesome last year, I had to say I didn't have the time to feel down or alone. I had many caring people around me and I could share my thoughts, ideologies and love with them.

I wonder what's gotten into me. I rarely step out of my room besides having to do the necessary. I rarely talk during breakfast, lunch or dinner. I don't bug anyone during the night. I would just stay in my room, happily and sometimes not-so-happily.

I think I should go down town one day and get somemore story books to cheer me up. Grr, why la I so emo. . . . WHY? WHY? WHY???

Okay, I just got to remain focused on the main reason I'm actually here..

Wind, oh Wind!

It's really amazing how strong the wind is here in Wellinton. The tree looks exactly like in the picture above.

I'm getting used to it with time. I love the wind but hate it as well. It depends on my mood. If I feel all romantic and have my own emo 'movie' scene, I would simple enjoy the wind blowing my hair here there and everywhere..BUT, If I'm rushing or moody, I'll start cursing. Oh well, that's just me.

Anyway, Taiping doesn't have much wind. I remember when it was windy when I was in Penang, I would stand at the balcony to savour it. Now, when I sleep, I can hear the wind making those creepy noises.

Sorry this post is kinda senseless, I'm not feeling very well but I just want to blog for the sake of blogging. Haha.

Chaos.

Amy