Friday, October 31, 2008


You know, life is like a long long path and you're walking along that path to reach your destiny. Destiny is shaped and molded by oneself while walking along that path of life. As usual, your walk will not be one long road that has one beginning and one type of ending. It can be easily deviated by a small turning you decide to take in that path. Sometimes bumpy, sometimes winding, sometimes you feel like you're flying instead of walking..

As most of you know, I decided to home school after my PMR and sat for my O Levels at the end of the year. I then continued my studies at Disted-Stamford in Penang to do a 1 yr Pre-U (A-Levels).

Here are some pictures of the people that walked side by side with me during this bumpy road. We carried each other along the way by merely saying ' Good luck ' or ' Study hard '.. Maybe even a nice sweet smile to encourage each other day by day.

After leaving my darling schoolmates in Convent after PMR, I'm beginning to really miss their presence. I have been buddies with them since primary school and we know each other really well from the inside out. I can tell most of their idiosyncrasies. I really miss those days when we got scolding from teacher together cause we didn't sweep the floor clean enough or we had the same answers for our homework *winkswinks*.

I wonder if they missed me too during form4 and form5? *puppydog eyes*..

I was talking to Sui Aing a short while ago and she sent me some pictures of their last week in Convent as a secondary school student. I somehow wished I was in the pictures too! I miss those days when we took pictures in all the craziest positions. We even took pictures under the rain! Oh ya, not forgetting all the obscene stuff we did too (pictures unavailable, haha). We could do those stuff cause it's an all girls school. So who cares? ' I got, she also got mah '. I remember tha phrase we used to say to each other when one of us was too shy to do the obsceneties. Okay la, not that obscene lar, but still inappropriate.

(left -> right : Jo Yee and Jessica)
(up : Jessie Saw, down :Sui Aing)
(Left->Right: Gessie, Jessie, Sunshine,Natasha,Chermaine,Yvonne)

Wherever I'm going to next, I really wish I could have more time to spend with all my sweethearts in secondary school and college.. Even an extra month would make me happy enough. Time flies, please don't let out friendship fly in separate ways too. Though we may be thousands of miles apart, our hearts must always unite kay?

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Kiddy days were fun days..

'Dear God, please make me, BIG-ger!'
'Dear God, pwwweeesssee make me older faster. Then I can venture out and explore this world'.

Those were my prayers about 7-10 years ago. I always wanted to be bigger, both literally and figuratively. I wanted to be free! I wanted the freedom to do anything I want. Believing that the grass always looks and IS greener on the other side, I can now conclude that, the '
greener' grass has wilted when I've finally reached there'. Hehe.
When I've finally reached where I longed to be years ago, I want to go back and rewind my wish which would be, ' God, can you make time pass slower so that I can always be Your lil sweetheart? '

When I was young, my most significant worry was mummy's angry face when I did something terribly wrong (such as, eating more sweets than I should, climbing up a tree-tarzan-ish, I know and using too much soap to blow bubbles while bathing. )

Right now, there are so many worries bugging me. From studies, to University applications to friendship problems..

I wish I could go back to my safety zone ( my parents tender loving arms ). Though they still shower me with more love than I can demand for, it's different. Taking even one step to greater freedom demands so much energy and sacrifices.

I love where I am right now. I love my sweetheart, my family and my friends but somehow, I miss those carefree days.

Now that I'm already here, I just want to say I heart you to ALL the significant and gorgeous people who have painted my life to make it into such a complicating yet interesting piece of art.
I am who I am because of those who took the courage and time to pick up that paintbrush and painted my life with all the beautiful cccoooollllooo
uuurrrssssss !

Sunday, October 26, 2008

Khas untuk doink-ku.

The handsome guy in the pic above and below is my brother.
This post is specially for him as I'm busy counting down to the day he returns to Malaysia.

Time flies! One moment, I was giving my brother a goodbye hug and kiss when he went off to NZ. Next thing I knew, time grew wings and flew really fast and now he's coming back!

Okay, I'm exaggerating, I had my emo moments and missed my brother and wish time didn't have to fly but could be teleported. I don't have to be emo any more cause next year, if everything goes according to plan, I'll be with him! I can eat his cooked food (try finding a brother who can cook better than his sister-haha-) and we can go jogging. Plus, I can bug him anytime I want even if it's during all the queer hours. He's 100% bugg-a-ble.

Right now, he's coming back and my family will be complete! It has been rather quiet without him and sometimes without me :( .
When he comes back, he can piggy back me. So i don't have to walk when I'm lazy. (I sould like some evil-step-sister than popped out from The Cinderella Story- YIKES, just that I'm prettier kay? *winks)
Besides that, he can entertain me with any type of crap you can imagine.
AND, we can eat cheese and oilives together! No one likes that combination, only this bro and sis..

Dear bro,
Remember, I want Chocolates! Loads of them. Since we're going to exercise alot, we might as well eat alot also (: .
I want jellybeans too, and marshmelows. Those colorful ones :D
Besides that, I was thinking, you can try something more dramatic like maybe catching a little cute lamb and smuggling it back Malaysia for us. ehe.. Thanks! (hugs)
With love,
Your sister, ME! xoxo

I need your help. Yess.. You (:

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Feedback plsss :)
I really appreciate it.

Tagged !

by Khai Yeng (:

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
I'll make him regret. HAHA.
I'll be really angry and disappointed.

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
To have a million more dreams to come true (:

3. Whose butt would you like to kick?
My bro's ass.

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
Half to charity, half to departmental stores(grins**)

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
Amy is with her best friend. So it's a yes!

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
Loving someone. Cause when you love someone so much, they just have to love you back cause yr so loving.

7. D0 you intend to wait for someone you really love?

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
Erm, move on. BUT if it's love, i'll wait.

9. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
Yes! Small things make me really happy. May it be merely a phone call or a hug from someone special to a smile from a friend.. Everything small matters.

10. What takes you down the fastest?
Losing someone special.

11. How would you see yourself in ten years time?
A mother. Haha. With a loving husband :P

12. Who is currently the most important people to you?
My family, my friends, my s.w.e.e.t.h.e.a.r.t, my plumplum(hamster), my bubbles(dog),
brownie(dog),gracie(dog also),my bunbun(hamster)..

13. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
Khai Yeng! A girl who transferred to KL few yrs back. She's kind, gentle and special ! (:

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
Married but poor but the condition is that my husband is loving and gentle. Moreover, he must be the man I love.
It's an unworldly kind of joy.. hehe.

15. (a)What's the first thing you do when you wake up?
I'll say to myself, '5 more minutes wont hurt ma..'. I do that like at least 5 times though.
15(b)What is your mood now?
Mixed emotions. I'm happy, tired, lazy..

16. (a)Your favourite weather is?
Chilly but the sun must still shine.
16.(b) Would you give all in a relationship?
I'll try..

17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
The one who make me swallow a million butterflies when I'm with him.

18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
Depends. I usually do though. Keeping all the anger and hurt us unhealthy kay. Makes you more emo.

19. Would you suffer now and enjoy later or the opposite?
I don't know. I always ask myself to suffer now and enjoy after A levels but to no avail.

20.W ho are u planning to tag next?
Sze Wei
Jo Yee
Yuen Yu

Nothing much~

Amy being emo again.
Currently missing my sweetheart, that's all.
What I hate the most? No matter where I go, I'm always missing someone.
When I'm in Taiping, I miss him and my brother and my Penang friends.
In Penang, I miss my family, my brother, Taiping friends, and him(=.=' sweat, I know).
Next year, I miss everybody. Except my brother...

Anyway, enough of the emo talk. It's unhealthy. Don't want you to relate
amy's blog-emo emo emo-bad for health... haha.

I'm currently flipping through my Chemistry notes about Electrolysis.
I used to love the Sciences when I was studying O Levels. What happen to my love for Chemistry and Biology this year??!?!
Oh ya, my sister is brushing my hair right now. She says it's knotted up.. Haha..
She wants to make my hair Silky smooth (watched Meet the Zohan? ) hahaha...

I better get studying before I go shed some calories..


Thursday, October 23, 2008

Maths.. I hate you..

(That girl above reminds me of ME. haha)
Okay, so I'm like really pissed over my maths paper yesterday. It was the first time this year I had a good feeling about maths.
I was like, okay, my mum paid for extra tuition and I stayed up late doing all the past years. Can't be that bad right?
I walked out of the exam hall with mixed feelings. I was trying to feel relieved that Maths is finally over but yet devastated at my performance. Really sucked.

Anyway, here's to all the A Levels students who are equally devastated as I am about out Maths paper.

You know what? Instead of leaving a few questions blank, I should have done this. They can't penalize me right? I mean after all, it does make sense. In fact, to me, it makes more sense that
Maths. Haha..

Logical mar.. Not mer??

Really should have done that. Maybe can get 1 mark.
I got find x right??
Wohoo! I love this.. ehe

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Exam fever !

Dear friends who are sitting for A-Levels, O-Levels, SPM, STPM or any major or not-so-major exams, ALL THE BEST!

Don't panic kay? Just keep your cool and try your best (:


Tuesday, October 14, 2008

I regret!

I really really really REALLY regret taking A-Levels. Here's why..

1. I'm not academically inclined kay. I can study. Simple stuff. Throw stuff like in depth Chemistry,
and I'll just smile at you.
2. I'm lazy. Explains it all huh.
3. I'm quite kine static, I guess? I rather spend my hours doing something instead of studying something.
4. A-Levels, Science stream in one year. Insane enuff for you??

I guess it's too late to regret now. I'm finishing my final semester in like a month and it's exam fever babe!

BUT the big question is, where should I head to next? It's tie for Uni applications and trust me, I'm still as lost at what I want to do as I was a year ago . Lets just pray and cross my fingers (and toes!) that I do not make the same mistake and I'll love whatever I'm studying next yr :)

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

Grrr.. Why lar..

Life just isn't a love story, right?

The closest I can get to being Cinderella would be.. in my imagination..
Though I have perhaps the greatest guy, my Cinderella Story scene is beyond my reach. Why?
Cause they all end up with happily ever afters. No couple will get their happily ever after because though you may be happy everyday, it's not a perfectly happy everyday.

I've been so emo lately I can't even begin to describe myself! grrr.
I better stop talking before my emoness is transmitted to you via internet!

Sunday, October 5, 2008

Here I am..

This is a crazy world
These can be lonely times
It's hard to know who's on your side
Most of the time

Who can you really trust
Who do you really know
Is there anybody out there
Who can make you feel less alone
Some times you just can't make it on your own

If you need a place where you can run
If you need a shoulder to cry on
I'll always be your friend

When you need some shelter from the rain
When you need a healer for your pain
I will be there time and time again
When you need someone to love you
Here I am, hmmm

If you have broken dreams
Just lay them all on me
I'll be the one who understands
So take my hand

If you reach emptyness

You know I'll do my best
To fill you up with all the love
That I can show someone
I promise you you'll never walk alone

Well if you need a place where you can run
If you need a shoulder to cry on
I'll always be your friend

When you need some shelter from the rain
When you need a healer for your pain
I will be there time and time again
When you need someone to love you
Here I am, oooo

Everybody needs somebody who
keep a heart and soul in two

Well if you need a place where you can run
If you need a shoulder to cry on
I'll always be your friend

When you need some shelter from the rain
When you need a healer for your pain
I will be there time and time again
When you need someone to love you
Here I am, Here I am

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

Love is in the air!!

Since I'm out of things to blog, I've decided to blog about love and its' quotes in this month of October.

For this post, I'm going to post about..

What love means to kiddos (:
Trust me, they're really cute.
I've chosen the ones that really got me laughing and saying ' Awww.. ' .

When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love.

Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other.

Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs.

Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK.

Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My mommy and Daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss.

Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday.

Love is when mommy gives daddy the best piece of chicken.

Love is when mommy sees daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford.

Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day.

I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones. (*cute innocent sweetheart ey?* lols)

When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you.

Love is when mommy sees daddy on the toilet and she doesn't think it's gross.